Whoops

I thought I had posted the round up from last week. Looks like I just saved the draft. So I really haven’t posted in almost a week. Sorry about that.

As I am sitting here cradling my head (allergies are NOT fun) and thinking about how much I need to get done before I go to work at 4pm to - maybe - make $100, I start wondering if this is worth it. I don’t mind hard work, but at the same time I’m not the pseudo-masochist (not sado, pseudo) that Mr. Grump is, either. I do enjoy being able to relax every now and then. He has to be constantly moving and doing.

I’ve been doing this *on the side* stuff from about 7am-3pm or 4pm every day, then going to work at night from 4-10 or 11. Then on the weekends I work at least Saturday night 4-11 and Sunday from 10am-8pm. So really I’m working about 60 hours a week for not a whole lot of money.

I figured out that if I hit my target, I am getting paid about $0.80 per hour.  As depressing of a statistic that sounds, it really isn’t the thing that bothers me the most. 

The worst part of it for me - I have no time to paint.

I keep telling myself that this stuff *should* eventually be basically passive income.  (Honestly, I still think I’d be spending about 20 hours per week on it, regardless).  But to get to that place, it looks like I’ll be doing this 80 hours and working at the restaurant for another year or so.  Wouldn’t be a bad thing - if I had time to paint.

This is exacerbated by the fact that I’ve recently done some pretty kick-ass paintings.  I really think I’m starting to finally “get” it.  And my teacher and close artist friends have told me they think I should be able to get into a gallery - and that much closer to my dream - pretty soon.  So theoretically I should be pouring all of my energy into art.  I feel like something’s gotta give.  The happiest two weeks of my life since I quit my job were when I got to paint for 3-4 hours for two weeks and make some of those paintings.  This is not an easy path.